This is what I do in the mornings before school. This is my deep secret. (:

love this.

This woman.

By the time the Lord made this woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, 'Why are you spending so much time on this one?' And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on 4 hours of sleep and an apple for breakfast, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a smile can cure anything from a bad day to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands.' The angel was astounded at the requirements. 'Only two hands!? No way! That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish.' 'But I won't,' the Lord protested. 'I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart… She already heals herself by trying to uplift others, AND she never forgets those who love her. The angel moved closer and touched her hands. 'But you have made her so soft, Lord.' 'She is soft,' the Lord agreed, 'but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.' 'Will she be able to think?’ asked the angel. The Lord replied, 'Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to help others around her through their trials with her advice and wisdom.' The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, the angel touched her cheek. 'Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.' 'That's not a leak,' the Lord corrected, 'that's a tear!' 'What's the tear for?' the angel asked. The Lord said, 'The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.' The angel was impressed. 'You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! This woman is truly amazing.' And she is! She has strengths that amaze men. She bears hardships and carries burdens, but she always upholds happiness, love and joy. She smiles when she wants to scream. she sings when she wants to cry. she cries when she is happy and if nervous she changes the feeling for a laugh. She fights for what she believes in. She stands up to injustice. She won't take 'no' for an answer when she believes there is a better solution. She goes without so their family can have. She comforts a frightened friend. She loves unconditionally. She cries when her friend leaves for 3 days, and cheers when she sees her again. She is happy when she hears about a birth or a wedding. Her heart breaks when she is the only one in her family to believe what she does. She grieves at the distance separating her from a loved one, yet is strong when she thinks there is no strength left. She knows that a hug and a smile can heal a broken heart. She has a million clothes which display her unique and cute style. She emails you when she misses you and brings you ice-cream when you are done with surgery. She does this to show you how much she cares about you. The heart of this woman is what makes the world keep turning. She brings joy, hope and love. She has compassion and ideals. She gives moral support to her family and friends. She has vital things to say and everything to give.  HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE TINY FLAW IN THIS WOMAN, IT IS THAT SHE FORGETS HER WORTH.

 

If you haven't noticed.

If you haven't noticed,
the main picture on my blog
is a picture of a dear friend and I.
This friend has taught me that tears
are a sign of strength.
That love is worth
more than money.
That friendship is something
never lost.
That laughing hard can never get to old.
That family is more important than anything in the
whole world.
That it's okay to not try to compete with the so called
"pretty" girls.
It's okay to be yourself.
That it's okay to pick yourself
back up once you've fallen for the millionth time.
That it's okay to make
a fool of yourself, as long as you were trying something new.
That it's fine
if you forgot to do your homework, as long as you remember to remember it
next time.
It's okay to chill-ax every once in a while.
It's okay to break one rule
like going around in the round-about 8 times, as long as you enjoy it while you are
doing it.
That it's okay to live a little.
That it's okay to smell the dandelion's in life because
you never know....they just might smell good.
That's it's important to stop and watch the sun rise as you walk to
school.
That it's okay to notice for the first time that your
best friend will never leave your side.
And that you will never leave hers.

i'm afraid.

My feelings this last while have all been a jumble.
At one moment I want to cry, while at the next...I am laughing.
I want to hang on to every dear moment.
I'm afraid to lose them.
Senior year is going by so fast,
and I'm not sure that I am ready to give it up.
I'm scared for the future, but excited at the same time.
I am afraid that I'll never get married...but who cares...then I guess
I have an excuse to get fat on ice-cream......no really,
I do admit...I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I will not get to know myself better before jumping
into something that I'm not sure that I even want to do.
I'm afraid that people will not like me and that they won't let me
have a chance to show what I am made of.
I'm afraid that my friends will stop calling.
Or that I will be left all alone in this big world.
I'm afraid that my life my spill over the edge sometimes.
But maybe the true answer to all these feelings are:

it's okay to be afraid....as long as you fix all those fears with faith.