love linda's talent.

Linda...is so talented. Its her that took these beautiful photos!

MY dreams

1.      I want to become part of student body president in college.

2.      I want to make a difference in the lives of those who surround me.

3.      I want to write a book on my life.

4.      I want to be a social worker, one that actually cares about the welfare of children, not just getting paid.

5.      I want to meet someone who not only lifts me off my feet….but keeps me there…..and then marry them in the temple.

6.      I want to never be afraid of who I have become.

7.      I want others to always feel included. I want to be the one to include them……no matter who they are, what they look like, where they’re from, or any mistakes they’ve made.

8.      I have always been interested in photography….but have never been quite sure or had the time to try it out and see if I am good at it….or maybe it’s just because I am jealous of one of my friends…who is talented……or I just want something useful invest my time in.  :]

9.      I want to love to work hard.

10.  I want to always get along with others.

11.  I want to remain a caring person.

12.  I want to be the best….at being Me.

I owe

I owe so much time. I don't know where to start to pay off my debts. I am wasting it.....slowly.....

the challenge.

you may need a magnifying glass to see His love.

Looking for the love of God,

Is not as easy as it is to say.

I decided to challenge myself and look for it each day.

Today,

I remembered to take out the trash. Surely this was by the grace of God because if I had forgotten, I am pretty sure my mom’s voice would be sore from yelling at me…I was spared yet another yelling.

I was reminded how beautiful I am when I looked into a car window. Surely my beauty comes from doing what is right.


Yet again, I am blessed by that reminder.

I told a woman whose face was nearly disoriented, that her smile was beautiful.


Yet again, the love of God was shared through another person.

I felt at peace even though I had a test that I was nearly never close to being prepared for.

Yet again, the love of God calmed my fears.

Last night, I was scared. I was by myself. I was worried.

 Yet again, the love of God calmed my troubled soul.

Yesterday, at the temple, I was reminded that the Holy Ghost cannot give us answers to big “concerns”, like if we should marry someone, if we cannot give heed and follow the council of the Holy Ghost even when the matter seems almost “insignificant”. Practice makes perfect.

Yet again, I was chastised by the Lord………but in way that I remembered He still loves me.

I was walking, and I remembered I have a beautiful friend whom I did not get to see today.

Yet again, I was reminded how lucky I am to have her………..

Yet again…….there is so much love expressed but hidden………we just have to find it to feel the blessings of His love.

Not all the time is life a picnic of abundant sunshine.

A friend once told me to hang on to my panties...and I think I finally understand why.

Life is hard, and when it gets that way, sometimes we turn to things like blogging. Today, or rather, the past long time, I have been trying way too hard. I am tired of trying to impress people when nothing is going to come of it. I am tired of homework and "to-do" lists. I am tired of high school and the drama. I am tired of having crushes on boys and then nothing happening. I am tired of realizing that I have fallen again, only to feel like there is no way back up. I am tired of disappointment, why won't he leave me alone? I am tired of feeling like I am never going to get anywhere in life. I am tired of feeling like a loser because I cannot hang out. I am tired of feeling left out. I am tired of feeling weakness when everyone around me seems so strong. I am tired of math. I am tired of trying to catch up with my mistakes. I am tired of me. I am tired of being tired.

I'm tired of making myself fit other peoples' ideals.

But then, there is that ray of sunshine.

A friend. The one who has been there from the start. The one who knows all my pains, struggles, losses, fears, doubts, brokenness, and hopelessness. Why did I not turn to Him before? Especially since He has more to offer than I know or can even comprehend. I have decided to live my life for Him. Live it...for Him. Live it to become the best He knows that I can become, if I only let Him guide me. Something that I learned in seminary today was a tactic that Satan uses to make girls feel bad and depressed. It was very interesting. So, when you feel like this one boy has been paying a lot of attention to you and you feel like he is THE one, Satan uses these feelings to make you think that if this guy does not end up "liking" you or asking you out or whatever that all hope is lost and that there is not another man that will come your way. But that is so false. There is someone even BETTER...in the near distant future, and so that is why Satan tries so hard to distract you into thinking that there is no one else. Have you ever wondered why God has not let you see whom you will marry right now? It’s because if you did know who it was...then you would never date those "other" guys and learn experience so that you could FIND  the one by knowing what you WANT in a man. God knows you and me separately, individually, yet collectively known as His children. He will lead us to our only one. He knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows who will be the best for us and so He will lead us to that person...if we let Him. Only if we simply let Him.

I think I can dance now.

Life=sunshine

Life, as fragile as we should know it.

                                                                                

As the days go by, I realize how lucky I am to live. Not many get that opportunity; so why then do I complain about my life not being perfect, especially when there are so many who never get the chance to fully live theirs? Be grateful...for your trials...for they not only build your character...but they build your life.